Guts

I bet you all been in Transjakarta's shelter queue.

But not in "heaven" position queue, it's when you in "hell" queue.

about 5 or 6pm, when the traffic like piss and people came out from all direction, to came home.

Many times I stuck inside Transjakarta's shelter queue when in "hell" time.

and many times I stood inside the shelter right line, usually as two lines

 and dispersed when we would touch the "finish" line. 

It became xb3@#$8*Izf5 line before you entred the bus.

I think that's what happend into our life.

people are become ambitious, to easily assume, competitive and selective.

Many reasons of course.

And mostly, they are getting far from their goals.

But what I did these day, I just go with flow. 

Actually, Life is getting hard.

Facing some "little" distraction like my Godfather will retire soon, my grandma on hospital again,

I got in medicine and healing, and some some. 

I called it challanges.

I tried. but I don't want really hard.

I remember my bestfriend said "Do everything you love.Do everything that can make you happy." 
So I did many loveable things like teaching my little fellas, Involved in Jakarta 32 C, 

designing again,hang more, lots bicycling, traveling like a boss and consume more vitamins.

So far this is my best 4th month ever in my life.

Really noticed I'm getting less but I did many new things, I'm having fun.

and I know we can't claim by ourself, but I guess all bad things reduced one by one.

 About to move to Bandung,

I just thought it after I saw my saving money on white envelope written "FUTURE".

so I thought, that's the realistic "future" I have: contiuing my life. 

I don't have some futuristic vision about this one but I am very exited.
I keep towards into my dreams and hold in my formula basic.

 So, as I stood on Transjakarta's shelter line, I let myself slowly waits for the bus 

that I should take with my favorite mixtape on my ears 

and doesn't care about the dispersed lines,

and let people in hurry and swearing to catches their bus.

We all deserves for a chance.