I guess,
I give you so much "to let you".
I let you helped you when you being a nothing,
I let you found a way when u lost,
I let you loved me,
I let you swam depth into me,
I let you to entered my world that does not belong to someone else,
I let you being mine,
and I being yours.
I let you saw me losing my grip and grieving when my worlds collapse.
I let you saw me in my lowest point,
I let you witnessed my best day and contented time,
I let you slide to my solitude and hold my hand,
I let you put that diamond ring on my finger,
I let you sang song that maybe not many girls loved to hear it,
I let you absorbed my veins and we were becoming one,
I let you live in me.
and I let you ate my heart and soul,
I let you have your own bubbles and worlds,
I let you got what you wanted: time, space, boundaries, trust;
I let you have nicknames that no one knows,
I let you interpreted sad and incapable to;
I let you played in infidelity.
I let you see your two sided of the coin,
I let you to harm me,
I let you slowly abused me,
I let you manipulated me,
I let you humiliated me,
I let you fell in love with them,
and I let you having your mood at home
depending on how she was fucking you.
I let you, in the name of trust,
so you even feel the love even from the wrong side for whole years.
I let you came again,
I let you live like usual,
I let you disrespecting me,
I let you got forgiveness.
I let you screamed "I don't love you anymore",
I let you wake up again from our room in the next morning.
but alas!
I let you do it again
and again
and again
and again
over and over,
sucking the blood on your thirsty ego.
I think
I let the door opened too big for you,
so you easily pass by,
come and go,
full audacity
and no apology,
all only
by your own terms.
I let you.