3.11.24
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23.10.24
Prerogative
You want to be a hero,
You want to be a knight.
You pursued a ghost,
Only to kill a lily.
You pretended to stand alone,
For the benefit of your desires.
You want to look like a gentleman,
And clean up your name.
For better or worse,
For your version of your new beginning.
But my white wedding dress is a witness to your black matter;
Every time you touched the innocence, it left a black grain of your abused.
And now, it's as dark as Gargantua.
I contemplated the Milky Way;
It showed that it was not coming from last year,
It was even not coming from five years ago.
Our stories only lasted for the first three years;
The rest was how you fed your ego
And normalized the anomaly of our reality.
13.10.24
Primal Urge
But what for?
Have you thought about it?
Stick it up as a man whom easily threw lies within the lies for years?
Stick it up as a man whom bleeds your soul
Stick it up as a man whom buried himself inside the blanket
Stick it up as a man whom never say your name in his pray, only insulting yourself in behind of his friends?
Stick it up as a man whom abused his power
Stick it up as a man whom see women as objects, so it is easy to humiliated and disrespected?
Stick it up as a man that the problem solving is to revenge
Stick it up to a man whom loves to turn the table of facts?
Is that even a man?
8.10.24
Fin
chin up, I exhale all the thrones you threw.
I faced and told The Time,
Meanwhile, part of me still just love you ; the idea of you.
The pain you've given to me constantly make the vault
Secured the light that beams on your deepest heart
Make sure I left nothing an inch of you on my pores.
I locked it and drown it in the deepest of the ocean.
I don't want to tag the coordinate,
I let it sink and rip.
I close my eyes,
Let it sink.
3.10.24
History
I didn't know our heart sent signal from the future that there will be huge distance come thru two months later.
1.10.24
The Coolidge Effect
Everything is smart when you falling in love.
Everything in your eyes.
and different,
and feels like brand new,
and beautiful,
and edgy,
and sexy,
and lustrous,
and interesting,
stimulating to your needs,
and romanticizing it as a savior,
and over, and over,
Push and pull just like a moon to the waves,
and get,
and win for awhile,
and cilmatic to the top.
And then it is stop.
Just stop.
You don't know what to do next.
You still pick roses over lilies.
Their thrones make you bleeds,
and it repeated again,
As the fire to the earth to burn you inside out,
You lose the water that suppposed to nurture you wholly.
Drench in liquor, lungs full of smokes, you try to break the mirror
but it won't.
falls into the night tunnel,
Roses and Poppies are bilnding you to be a tally.
You know exactly;
You'll be empty again.
11.9.24
Bluntly
Not mention how sweet was the sin,
The sin we used to wear now you give to her.
The sin we have now you proven to her.
The sin we shared, too crowded to stands.
The sin you and she said, "it is our obstacle, we must persistent".
No need to hit us and break us down.
I have marked alot to all over your body already.
She tastes mine.
You never choose 'enough' so the end always 'too much'.
Hurricanes will never sleep, if you waits for it silent,
it would never be.
How does it feels being a God of two moons?
4.8.24
Jarring
10.7.24
Dua Seperempat - Tujuh